Quote from the Heart Friday

"Tell yourself you're beautiful until you believe it, no matter how long it takes." -Brian A. Moon

Big Difference?

A friend and I were talking on Christmas Eve, and I was telling him that I felt lonely. He responded that although he was alone for the holiday, he wasn't necessarily feeling lonely, but isolated was a more appropriate word. Let's just go over this real quick...

Isolate: to set apart from others.

Lonely: a) being without company, b) cut off from others.

Is it just me...or...talk to me, again, about the difference...

It's been awhile.

I haven't blogged in awhile. I've been both busy, and not busy. I haven't felt like spending much time on the computer, that's for sure.

Christmas was quiet, but nice. Just like my 6-year old, I think I have the It's-Over-Blues. I'm feeling overwhelmingly sad today. More so than yesterday, even. Not sure what the deal is.

However, I am glad to be back to my daily routine. It feels so much more comfortable here. I managed to gain and lose and gain again over the holiday. We'll see how I fair with my deadline on the 1st. I reached my goal once before the deadline....now, can I reach it again BY the deadline? Ugh. Wish me luck! And, prayers...I can always use those.

I hope every one's Christmas was fantastic!

Giving Back

I'm sitting here, in a quiet office, feeling very tired - and wishing I was still sleeping in my nice warm bed. But, I'm not. I'm here, at work, in this nice quiet office. I'm grateful.

I'm in a grateful mood.

I have a wonderfully large family, and a large network of awesome friends. I have surrounded myself with people I enjoy. People that make me feel good about me, and about them. I am grateful. We all have ups and downs, and family & friends help us get through the valleys, and enable us to shout from the mountaintop while we're up there. For this, and them, I am grateful.

The road to recovery has been long and scary, at times, but I am grateful for those along my path that have aided me all the way. I've literally leaned on them from time-to-time, some times harder than others. If you're reading this, you know who you are. I can't even begin to describe how grateful I am for your help along the way. Here's to patience and kindness, and love.

I am also grateful for times most recently where I was stronger than I ever thought possible. Times where I could give back, the knowledge and the experience that I've gained through this journey. Paying it forward, so to speak. To give of yourself in such a way that you can help someone else in their journey...there's no better feeling. For this, I am grateful.

Oh, so grateful.

Thrillsville!

I'm feeling the best I have felt, physically, in a long time. And, I'm thrilled about it.

I reached my very first weight loss goal this morning, and I'm thrilled about that, as well.

I've already determined another shorter-term goal, and I think I can do it! That thrills me.

I'm nearly done with my Christmas shopping, and have everything wrapped already. Normally, I'm wrapping feverishly on Christmas Eve. The fact that I won't have to do that thrills me on many levels.

I get to have lunch with my best-est work friends tomorrow, which thrills me, as well.

And, I have Friday AND Tuesday off. I can't even describe the thrill that brings me.

Tell me what thrills you....

What would YOU do?

So, iTunes serves up One Wish, by Ray J. You know, Brandy's brother. Anyway, that sparked my interest.

What if I really were granted one wish? What would I choose? Would I wish for a cure for Cancer? Would I wish for world peace? Would I wish for an impeachment? Would I wish for a million dollars? Would I wish for a freakin' boyfriend?

I have no clue what I'd do with just one wish. But, I probably should know. The answer is probably a clue into a huge character trait. I may have to ponder this for awhile.

Do you know what you'd wish for?

Odds & Pieces

I'm in a really 'deep' mood today. There's so much that I'm learning every day, that even when I find that I'm bored, it's still intriguing just to wait and see what comes out of my experiences. Even the small ones.

This weekend, I spent a great deal of time with Becki, a good friend of the family. She helped me decorate my place for Christmas, including paying for half of my Christmas tree. My apartment looks beautiful...as if Christmas threw up inside. And, it's just gorgeous...even for throw-up. I love to sit in the dark with the Christmas lights blinking and listen to Christmas music, especially, or nothing at all. I love to revel in the season, as it is my favorite time of year.

My daughter was in a Christmas program at church yesterday, and she did a fantastic job (if I do say so, myself). She danced and sang her little heart out, and thank God (and her parents), the girl has rhythm!

This week will be busy, as usual.

I'll see if I can come up with something entertaining to talk about.

It's nothing, really. And, something. All at the same time.

B = ...but, there's really nothing wrong!

O = ...only it feels so empty.

R = ...resistance is key.

E = ...effervescent, so it seems.

D = ...speaking of doldrums.

Stuck

I'm stuck again. I have nothing exciting going on (other than the normal stuff I talk about all the time), and don't have anything to write about.

This is me, feeling stuck.